Wednesday, January 25, 2006

陷得越来越进了.完蛋.听着他说和思惠出去,感到好显目思惠,也一直默默希望自己有那么一天..能和他一起出去逛街. 现在的我, 只好做美梦吧~!
I keep having this feeling, that I like him alot more than he likes me. And, he'll never want me as a gf, but only as a confidante and friend. Cuz after all, i am no beauty and not a sweet talker. So now all i do is dream.dream.dream.

Why is everyone's blog sounding so sad nowadays? everyone is like hanging on to a branch, holding tight, hoping one day, the person in our minds will come and rescue us. But we wait and wait..and the wind blows, and threaten to throw us off, but we hang on to our every last bit of hope, telling ourselves to believe.to believe. ok, mad's making me a poet alrdy. Zzz

I just hope everyone is happy and cheer up. I am sure if we hold on, someday, someone will come and save us all. Someone who means the world to us. So just believe in it.

I took the initiative already. I did most of the things i pictured myself wanting to do. I gave encouragement, care, concern, love. I want to be the one there. But i need to buck up myself. To tell myself not to think soo much. To just concentrate on academics and volleyball. To not notice that there are other nicer girls out there going after him. Lol. I feel stupid. I really wanted to accompany him to get whatever clothes he needed ytd. but nope.he didnt need me. I feel so disappointed. He'd rather have sihui for company, than me. Gosh...feel so failure somehow.
Guess i am not needed bahs. Feel so lost. Everytime he pats my head, I feel comforted, yet even more lost after that. Cuz wad i wanna do, is to really show my true feelings about how much I really like him. I am so tempted to give him a tight hug each time i see him upset and afraid.but I am scared he'll be shocked. so i dont dare.arrrgh.
I should just go out with my cousin later and help him find his shoes instead. Sigh.
Just praying for miracles to happen soon...praying praying.

Goodluck for the photoshoot. Just go out there and show em' what Volleyballers' are really made of.the cool attitude and all...

gtg.shall strive hard for better concentration in class. i feeeel darnn dumb!