Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Ok.so i havent blogged in almost 2 weeks. I guess too many small things happen that makes it hard to blog. so here's the main highlights of it

last thursday: He was moody and upset, and left container in a bad mood after a call. So i was concern.smsed him to ask him how he was..and sadly, i was heartbroken when he said i dont need it" when all I hoped was to lend him a comforting shoulder and listening ear if he needed one. So i heartbrokenly went to ikea with madd, thinking i was an idiot cause i couldnt help liking him and keep getting sad.But after that he apologised on msn, and i forgave him straightaway, i wasnt even angry with him in the first place, for i knew he was in a bad mood and it was I who kinda provoked him in that state i guess. sigh.

friday: he came and find me in klas!! =) den we go container together. he suddenly like become quite nice to me..and though i was very happy, i was afraid that he was doing it out of guilt from thursday. but i hope not. mel.rmb.you are supposed to take things easily and slowly.

saturday: wad a crappy day.hahas.he was like..meowing like a cat with voice clips on msn.so funny! i saved the funniest 2.hahas. so fun.very long nvr talk and "fool" around liddat with him ler. =

sunday: went to dr loke's house with vballers.sad la.he never come.hai. so i was half sian the whole day. drank red wine =P. and lost like $7..not much mood to play cards sia.cuz he nvr reply my sms.sigh.

monday: forgot what happened already. OH yah. talked to him on msn almost the whole day tdy.then he ask me go c10 play cs..so i pack all my things already..then he popped his head into my class and said "eh mel.i going out with my friends ok?"and quickly ran off.Grrrrr! make me pack for nth. alamak. saw him 4 times tdy sia! = training was sucky. i like no qiu gan at all tdy. sian. then the coach abit pian xin..and xiaoling was all sticky over the coach again.wth.

yesterday: he came to find me in klas again, to go container, then we went to find sihui to walk to container. sihui's such an angel at times that I feel so imcomparable to her..sigh. so he claimed this week is T.S.G.W = treat sihui good week. elfie and shiekh asked me when he came klas find me -whether I am together with him already.i can only wish and dream. i told them we were only good friends and i doubt i can ever be the one girl in his heart..then they see me so sad they all quiet quiet.haha. then me and sihui went out to buy shirts for vincent and gary and xiaode, and we decided to get him on too, to cheer him up, but when we were done with vincent and gary's, shops all closed ler. haiyooo.

today: never talked much on msn.he also nvr ask me play cs during lunch.but i see him offline, so i guess they were playing.so i logged in too.but kanna kicked out. hai.but i found out he's using my name as a nick!"melissa" =D touched. haha. he ask his classmates dont kick me..but i guess, after i killed them 4 times, they small gas kick me ler ='(. going phloy's house ltr.guess ltr gonna walk down with him n sihui again. i feel so lost. somehow i feel so envious that sihui's close to him too, that she get's to know everything about him before i do. vday's coming. i got no date, cuz i am foolishly waiting for someone, hanging on to every bit of hope that someday, he'll really learn to treasure and love me back. but i guess i can wish on. I just hope everything thats happening now can last for awhile, which I would be contented with for the time being. mel.u need the courage.to understand him. to encourage him to open up.to cheer him up.