Thursday, April 06, 2006

好难过.
My hardwork and effort will never be recognised by the coach. At least thats how I feel. 4 times the same kind of ball, and I receive and hit it so nicely to him, and he has to say "heng one" or "lucky one"..can I ever be lucky 4 times in a row?!
好自责.
I feel that I am the one far far behind alot of people, and its unfair to them when they train with me, cause I'll only hinder their progress. I feel so useless. I put in effort, yet I am still far behind them in coach's eyes. My hardwork will never pay off.
好伤心.
Sii, says she feels that no one is treating training seriously anymore and that she thinks she's not improving this way.
I also feel that there's hardly any fighting spirit left in the team.
Everyone is joking away.
Everyone is laughing.
Even Coach looks down on the team. The only person he worships is Rena. Oh mighty Rena.
When will we ever get the recognition.
When will the effort I put in ever pay off.
I feel so useless.
I feel so helpless.
I want to improve, but there's no one to help me.
Coach doesnt even point out our mistakes to us, unlike Bao Kun in the past.
I dont know what to do anymore.
I only know I'll continue to fight
I'll never leave the team unless they dont want me anymore.

Thanks you for caring for me. 可是,我不知该开心或难过...
其实, 我还满显目ah sii 的. So many people care for her. Gary, Perng Ceat, Kai, and all of the girls' team. She's really one lucky girl. I know you'll improve girl. Jia you. Dont feel so disheartened. We 5 will jia you ok..I promise to give my best, (why am i writing this, she doesnt even know my blog exists. haiii.)

好无奈, 好自责, 好难过, 好累.

ps. whoever said darcy is handsome...please.change.spectacles. -___-"