Tuesday, April 11, 2006

*^%$#@#$% coach.
Bloody hell.
Had about enough from him.
I tried so hard, so hard just to gain his recognition. But time and again, he keeps condemning me in front of the whole team. He passes judgement with both eyes closed. I really had enough, WTF is he trying to do by downing me and mocking me in front of the whole team time and again? In his eyes, I'll never. NEVER be his standard. All my efforts have come to naught. I feel so helpless.So useless. The injustice. The agony. The sorrow. I cant believe I actually cried on my own during training just now. It shows how much I love vball, it shows how much I have tried. But arrogant francis just doesnt wanna admit it, that in this 2 wks since I have challenged him, I have improved tremendously. he just doesnt see it. HE will NEVER see it either. wth am i trying so hard for. wth am i hoping to gain his atention. wth am i such an idiot. someone slap me n wake me up please. wth am i doing all this. wthhhhhh. damnit, i gtg to work with swollen eyes and blocked nose tmr.zzz.
mel's mood: An all time low. ='( Time out.alonee.

6 days till sch reopens
my hectic life's gonna begin again.
but anything beats working.